21 Secrets

Signed up to try out 21 Secrets 2013.  I will use this blog to show any work that I am able to produce.  I hope its as good as 2012 was.

This evening...

Went this evening with every intent on seeing the movie of Stephanie Meyer's "The Host".  it was only being shown in two of the 14 theater rooms, and both were completely sold out for the evening.  SOOOO, rather than be subject to G.I. Joe, I opted that we see "Olympus has Fallen".  I did not have high hopes until just 2 minutes into the movie there were no less than 5 big name stars.  That many do not jump on a sinking ship!  

This movie frighteningly portrays a situation that is completely likely in today's world.  It was action packed, and made me feel.  Of course I felt pissed, and wanted to see blood retaliation.  I never really hated a particular race, but the North Koreans are insane, and cruel!  

Now, I am nursing a headache and awaiting the meds to work to allow me sleep, which I hope is not plagued with thoughts of what that movie placed in my mind.  

It took me 6 months

I have been working out almost every day fr 6 months, and only just recently was awarded a "perfect" workout by the electronic trainer at Koko fit club.  Guess my next will come in another 6.  

Black cloud is back..

I am tired all the time, been sick...dread going to work for the last week, and the latest development is that I don't want to go to KoKo fitclub (my latest obsession).  The depression is back.  It starts with stress beyond my ability to deal with..then it all implodes.

Is it Friday yet??

Although the worst of "the plague" is over, I am left with a breath taking cough (that is worsened by Derek's cat) and nasal congestion X 12 (also made worse when around the cat).  If this does not clear up soon, I may have to make an appointment with my asthma/allergy doctor for the first time in 10+ years.

I need to take some medicine, and try to get some sleep tonight...hopefully it will help me to breathe!

MeMoRy

My mind wanders back to a memory
of a time when my heart leapt with joy
then it comes back to where it is now and says
it was only because of a boy.

Though he made me feel happy, completed
it all, it turns out, was a lie
I was only a notch in his bedpost
when I think it, all I do is cry.

Where warmth was,a cold chill now blows
and the salt from my tears cloud my way
Not sure how to move out beyond here
to move on? to move up, or to stay.

The Creeping Crud..

I think it was my Mom or one of the sibs who started referring to illness as "The Creeping Crud".  Well, this week, I got a crud that pounced.  Started out as a searing sore throat and laryngitis...then to make things interesting, I got a very phlem based and horrid cough (no help to the sore throat) Messes up work where I talk all day...can't be there without a mask on.  Messes up my work out schedule...as I am not one of those people who don't care if I am contagious.  

I haven't slept this much in ages. I think the last time was when I had mono in 8th grade!  Blech!  Just wish it had the same affect! I lost about 20 pounds when I had mono!!  

Hinder..."Thing for You"

Well, now that it's morningWhere do you want to go from here?Well, now that we're soberAre your thoughts of me more clear?
And now that your head is rightDid you dig last night?It keeps playin' in my mind
'Cause girl I got a thing for youAnd I think it's kinda crazy'Cause I know that you have someone tooWonderin' where you were last night
For now we'll say goodbyeBut don't think we're throughI got a thing for you
Well, now that you're homeWill he be the first thing that you see?I know you'll compare usHow does he match up next to me?
And now that your head is rightDid you dig last night?It keeps playin' in my mind
'Cause girl I got a thing for youAnd I think it's kinda crazy'Cause I know that you have someone tooWonderin' where you were last night
Girl I got a thing for youAnd I know the night was hazyBut I still remember wakin' upAnd kissin' your neck one more time
For now we'll say goodbyeBut don't think we're throughI got a thing for you
Well, I remember layin' your head downI remember lovin' all your sounds
I got a thing for youAnd I think it's kinda crazy'Cause I know that you have someone tooWonderin' where you were last night
So girl I got a thing for youAnd I know the night was hazyBut I still remember wakin' upAnd kissin' your neck one more time
For now we'll say goodbyeBut don't think we're throughI got a thing for you

Alone

I sit alone in my silence
no one to share in the dark
I long for the feeling of excitement
I long to again feel that spark

Illness

"I cannot go to school today, said little Peggy Ann McKay. I have the measles and the  mumps a gash a rash and purple bumps"

a line from Shel Siverstein's poem (title escapes me) but I have been, myself, feeling the plague. I have laryngitis. The doctor says it can last anywhere from 2 days to 10!  Sweet.  I talk to patients all day.  Could not work yesterday or today. Fever, sore throat, head and body aches from the virus.  But am to return tomorrow when I still cannot speak.  It will be an interesting day.  I haven't slept so much since mono in 8th grade!  Hope it helps me make it through tomorrow!

Waxing poetic, but not feeling anything good enough to post.  

People and their eyes..

It will never cease to amaze me what weird and funny things people do with regard to their eyes and their vision.  Keep contacts in yogurt because its cool and soothing...spit on their finger then wipe it on their eye for moisture..and then there are the people who see 20/20 and thing they are blind..and the ones who see 20/400 and think they are fine!  

Of course, some of these people are being lead by the false guidance of other eye care professionals and their own self diagnosis, but it is a constant source of complete and utter amusement for me.

In progress...

Beneath the appearance of a thick defensive skin,

A scared an lonely girl lies within.

Inside the eyes so red from the tears,

of longing for love and acceptance for years

This heart...

Don't come into this heart to bring hatred or pain
Don't come to this heart to cause storms filled with rain,
Don't come to this heart with no love on your mind,
Come into this heart with a love that is blind...

What I'm working on...

Working on a set of "art quilt squares" that each have a love quote on them.  Not necessarily all mushy love quotes, but funny, mean, honest quotes, and then I art them up.  I am slow making these because its hard to find quotes that reach me in some way.  

Creativity....(wall art)

I decided to brush it off and put it up. I wont be sharing a bedroom anytime soon with a boy..even if I do have one for a room mate right now.  I made the shadowbox and stained it..and used to go to antique stores and flea markets finding little perfume bottles and various other items that looked like "me" and add them to the box.  The letters of my name are Mary Engelbreight.

Hoping for good things in 2013.  Hoping I will keep up with this blog.

In the Beginning...

I watched the movie "The Freedom Writers", and it threw me into such a state of nostalgia that I got the book, and then started thinking about trying to blog again.  It never worked out for me in the past--the blog site would close..things did not work out for me.  I miss the activity of daily writing.  I told some friends that I would give it a try again, and came here. 

This isnt the same to me. I miss the pen or pencil to paper writing that I did in highschool and for a while beyond.  You cannot draw on the computer (unless you have that artist program on the I-pad...for that matter, unless you have an I-pad.  You cannot glue momentos into it even if it IS an I-pad!  but it will do for now.